although you're gone, but the essence of loves still remain in the deepest of me.

2009-04-09T00:53:00.002+08:00

my 21st birthday was kinda a boring one. no celebration, no nothing. sigh.. went to meet my family for a dinner. although it's a simple dinner gathering, but somehow i felt some warmth frm the bottom of my heart. both my mummy and daddy cared alot for me although i go back home rarely. i can see frm their eyes, they really missed me alot.

my darlg, mr yeo, gave me a necklace and a bottle of red wine as my birthday present. hahas. and guess what?.. my surprise was found in the toilet when i went to toilet for my shower. lame right? dots. really hand it to him for placing my present at such kinda disgusting place. lols. receive alot of birthday text frm my dear friends. thanks, guy.!

for the past 3days i been receiving strange texts frm someone who he say he know me yet i have no idea who he is. this guy really extremely pissed me off. i shall not elaborate what he text me but i reckon this guy is really a PERVERT. im glad i walked off first before he arrived. better not let me find out who is he or i wont let him off. further harassment frm him, i swear i'll make police report. whether is it a prank or not, full stop means full stop.! serious warning and i mean it.!

3 more days and i'll be on 3k521 flight to taiwan. hahas. so damn excited sia. but feeling abit shag upon knowing my butt have to stuck onto the seat for 5hours or so throughout the journey. my butt will go sha-lalalala lors. dots. i swear i'll enjoy myself to the max cause this year no more leave for me to clear lers. *sobs. i reckon jessice hoo biling is as excited as me. nope.! i think is more excited than me bahs. she keep texting me how many more days left before we take off frm sg. hahas. not yet prepare my luggage and i think i'll only have time to pack on fri night. sat night will spend over at jessica's pasir ris home.

all right, i shall stop here. will update agn with photos i snap at taiwan. night, guys.

loves, hazel

2009-03-04T22:49:00.009+08:00

on the plane. thailand night scenery.

took at the bkk terminal.

self-portrait at bkk cafe.

hazel, aud, chiumin, jess, ser.

self entertained when they ignore us.

these prawns are as big as our palm sized.

thailand tu-tu.

me and ser:)

me and jess darlg("v")

the clothes i buy in thailand. psss:X

i love all this rings. so kawayi.!

hazel, jess darlg and her cousin,(chiumin)

our hotel BIG name.!

ser, aud, yong, rong

this chair is too small for both of us.!

we love this car.!

we live on the 5th floor.

me, jess and her hubby(zr).

the menu of our dinner at bmk.

me and darlg jess on the bed.

the messy road in thailand.

me and boy. loves.

actually there's alot of pics to be uploaded but i scare there is not enough spaces. so i shall stop here. there will be more pics of our taiwan trip. stay tune.!!

2009-02-27T08:03:00.003+08:00

back frm bangkok in less than 8hours ago... and im seriously worn out by this trip.! lols. cus we been shopping arnd more than we rest lors. haha. actually only intend to spend 600bucks but ended up spending more than 800bucks. and now im have to declare: I'M BROKE.! wahaha. can eat grass lers... thailand really a heaven for ppl who loves to shop all day long cus shops are all arnd the corner. and i think i got myself 30+pieces of clothes. the clothes there are simply colourful, fanciful and BEAUTIFUL.

although i din eat much at thailand but i still put on weight. dono where my fats come from.? dots. not that the foods are not nice but i jus don really like spicy stuffs. hmmm... tried their foot massage and i have to say "SHIOK". although im scared of itchiness but still enjoy after somewhile. really make a joke of myself, keep giggling under the blanket.

lastly, the 'tu-tu' over there are still acceptable. not as if i heard from my collegues, not so scary afterall... but i still prefer the tu-tu driver we hail outside PLATINUM. this driver best cn.! the traffic over there was so messy and crowded but he still managed to squeeze thru with a super duper fast speed. the feeling was like sitting a roller coaster sia. but jess they all say they will never ever board his tu-tu agn, but i still wish to sit the next time i go and i will surely go to PLATINUM to wait for him. haha.

one more thing, i like the atmosphere at HOLLYWOOD(thai disco). it's so packed with youngster but still got some middle-aged man there. the thai girls there have really beautiful figures.! they wear so sexy(bra and g-string) yet not abit shy. if singapore are to have this kind of places, i think mostly of the girls have to use metal chain to tied their bf at home liao. hahas.

so fast, a 6d5n trip ended and right now i have to get ready for the mood to get back to work tmr. sigh... so sian, so shag. in 6 to 7 more weeks, im flying to taiwan le. and now i have to scrimp and save my holiday expenses from tdy onwards lers. kampahteh.!

你能分清楚爱和喜欢吗？

2009-02-19T00:39:00.004+08:00

你能分清楚爱和喜欢吗？

喜歡和愛咫尺千里。當你喜歡一個人時，你想和他在一起，因為他會帶給你快樂；

離開後，你會想念，想著想著就會笑，然後繼續你平靜的生活，並期待著與他再一次重逢。

當你愛一個人時，你想和他在一起，那是一種牽腸掛肚的捨不得，怕他受委屈，怕他不能好好照顧自己；

離開後，你也會想念，想著想著歎一口氣，'不知他現在過的怎樣？
'然後你繼續你平靜的生活，希望他早日回到你身邊。你喜歡的人在你眼中是天使，無所不能，他總會滿足你的任性的要求。

你愛的人在你眼中是孩子，傻傻的，你不期望他做出什麼'好事'來，只一味縱容他那些讓人哭笑不得的舉動。

你會希望你喜歡的人陪著你，然而你心中想的可能是你愛的人；

你會希望陪在你愛的人身邊，看他在你面前睡得如此安逸甜美毫不設防的樣子，你會微笑，會覺得好幸福。

你喜歡的人傷害了你，你會生氣，並且一定要讓他哄著騙著逗你笑你才原諒他；

你愛的人傷害了你，你只會獨自傷心，因為你怕對他大吼大叫會嚇著他，你憂傷地微笑著，看著他的眼睛，一旦發現他的眼裡流露出歉意和悔恨，你會立即心疼地摟他在懷裡，那一刻，你也是幸福的。

你可以同時喜歡很多人，你會希望和很多人在一起，但也許很多年後你才發現，原來你愛的就只有那麼一個，就那麼一個，怎麼都不會變，你以為把他忘記了，其實只是忙的沒空想起而已，對於你喜歡的人，你關注的是他的優點；

對於你愛的人，你關注的是他的缺點，並且，那些缺點如果無關原則的話，它們在你眼裡是可愛的，獨一無二的。

喜歡和愛其實只有一紙之隔，任何愛都從喜歡開始，當有天你突然發現，你喜歡的那個人在你眼中不再完美，而他的瑕疵正如月中的桂影一般讓你更加依依不捨，你會覺得與他光彩照人的一面相比，你更願意看他在你面前無助的表情，不知道是不是應該祝賀你，總之，你的感情昇華了
——仰慕不是愛，甚至不是喜歡，當你對一個人只有仰慕之情時，你們在一起便失去了和諧。

有人說愛一個人很累，的確是，因為你想為他承擔，可是愛與喜歡相比最大的魅力就在於，當你和愛的人在一起時，你的感覺就像回家了！

2009-02-18T00:43:00.002+08:00

psss... my blog was left to rust since oct. hahas. din really have the time to update too.
i dono when will i update my post agn so i shall post a very long one now. lols.

going on a THAI trip this coming sat(21/02). will be going with a group of frens (jessica,zhirong,serene,jessca's cousin). i'll be flying off at night frm SG first as in the first place i booked the wrong time of flight online. darned.! but luckily im flying off with yh first. thanks goodness he's around. cant imagine if i were the only one flying to BANGKOK, i would rather waste the hundred over bucks jus to assure my safety. lols. only change a 500 over bucks to spent as quite many of my collegues comments there is really nothing to buy. because of this trip, i had a hard time applying leaves frm my manager as many of my collegues alr took their leaves. frankly speaking, im not at least excited bout this thai trip. maybe because im flying off to TAIWAN in the mid of April bahs. wahaha. but only going with jessica this time round. i swear it is a last min decision. actually planning to go with yh in the earlier of april to celebrate my birthday. but i think he cant take leave anymore or his boss will treat him eat cuttlefish le. dots. sometimes, i jus loved to do things at the last min.! more thrilling, isn't it?

after this TAIWAN trip, me and jessica cant go on leaves anymore. cus we alr on the list le. applying for TAIWAN de leave, still we have to act like a begger begging for money. sigh.!jessica is so excited bout the TAIWAN trip man.! she have alr bought the air tickets and made the long distance call to TAIWAN to reserved the hotels... and even plan where shld we go on the first day, second day and etc. OMG.! damn kaisu cn.! hmmm... this time round de TAIWAN trip, me and jessica decided to bring a $2ooo over bucks to spend(not included the hotel and the transportation), we promise to shop all we can as this is the last holiday trip we can go in this 2009. this month and the next, we will have to scrimp and save a bit. gonna eat instant noodles liao lors. anw, i alr buy a few packets. hahas. so no more cabbing to and fro work, no macdonalds, no new heels, no new clothes, no singing session. *argh.! @&^$&^%*&^&.! so guys, don asked me out frm now on... sob:(

will be gg on my last vacation on 12april to 17april. so my friends, ya can tell me what ya wanna buy frm there. i promise i try to find for you. but please don ask me to buy donuts or cakes all this stuffs huh. my stupid manager ask me to help him buy fruit cake frm TAIWAN.! the previous time alr helped him buy donuts and i swear i feel extremely regreted aft i promise him. i swear that is the first time and the last, LESLIE PENG.!

hmmm... i think this post shall be my longest post in my entire blog le. think will be updating agn only when im back frm TAIWAN. i swear my next blog will not only be only a compo that boring. will update my thai trip and taiwan trip de photos. be patient, my friends. nights.

2008-10-10T00:52:00.002+08:00

hahaha... 5 more days and i'm going TAIWAN.!
although jessica and zhirong cant join us due to Janelle,
but i'm still so excited bout our trip.
although only 3 of us gg taiwan in the end
but im sure we'll enjoy ourselves very much.
jessica already promise me next year to thailand or hongkong
and i hope jessica will keep her promise. right gal?

departure on 1pm tues afternoon and arrive on 11pm sat night.
tk care, friends. will get ya all presents frm taiwan.
will get back to ya all when im back in s'pore.
see ya all soon:)

2008-05-18T09:41:00.002+08:00

very long since i last update my blog.
feeling kinda worn-out by everything arnd me,
whether is it work or relationship.
but im still feeling quite happy.
relationship with my collegues is excellent.!
especially chris, my supervisior, she damn dote me. lol.
ytd went bugis arcade with chris, siew yun, shareen, yao and chewyee.
we have lots of fun there playing the machine to hook soft toys.
i hit the jackpot and i get a bunny but i give chris
cus she sponsor me 2oplus over dollars for me. hees.
but i went home with a bag full of sweets and a WINNIE THE POOH.!!
was so tired wen i reach hm, fall asleep without bathing. yucks.! lol
hmmm, shall stop here. gtg prepare to go work le.

2008-04-29T12:11:00.002+08:00

meet up with pat recently, the feeling is so great. we went to kent ridge with darren , weiming and co. quite boring as they talked their business, we talked their business. lol. hmmm.. ever since i start working in jeanyip, my circles of friends even though enlarge but i still very unhappy. the friends i have in the past, have started to leave one by one.

now i am living with YH, think everyone arnd me shld know. he fetch me go work and after work. he love me, dote me and care alot for me. many ppl told me, i may as well married him since i already clinging onto him for bout 4 to 5 yrs. i know i can never find a person like him, love me as much as i do love THY in the past. i know the feeling very well, when ya like a person, yet the person take it for granted or just simply ignore, did so much things for that person yet get nothing good in return, yet tears and hurt is all ya get afterall. so i made up my mind, i wont have any hope on THY anymore. it's time i return YH love. i dono can i love him as much as he do love me but i willing to try afterall, i know he is true to me. simply saying, me and THY... ... ... FULL STOP.!!

so... THY, i wont cling onto ya anymore. but still, i'll rem ya and keeps all the memories between us right to the deepest of my heart. right here, i wish THY and his gf all the best.!

2008-04-10T23:30:00.002+08:00

went to lot1 to meet ting for Shopping at 4.3o.
was suppose to meet her at 3.3o but was late due to overslept. lol.
she went to meet Tse Tse before i came.
as nothing to do, we went in to COTTON ON (LOT1) to walk arnd.
as the clothes there were damn nice and cheap,
we start our 'AUNTY PATTERN.!' grabbing those really cheap stuffs. haa.
spent abt 70plus lo. *diaos.

headed down to town.
we joke and laugh all the way on the bus.
ting's laughter really make me so damn paiseh cn.!
alighted at HMV and walked to cineleisure.
went for my lunch cum dinner at 'WANG JIAO'.*URPH.! SO FULL.
den walked arnd to shopped for clothes and shoes.
den cabbed hm at arnd 10plus.

since ages i've been shopping like today. enjoy man. LOVING IT.!

my birthday..

2008-04-08T15:18:00.004+08:00

im on leave frm mon to thurs.
ytd bring baby out to salon to wait for ting.
baby keep shitting and peeing in the salon. *arghhh.!
michelle, june, jiale and viper went down to jurong enter de kbox first.
we reach arnd 11.
he came and we sang all the way to 3am.
in between linzhe and yong quan came down and left bout 1am.
cabbed home and off to sleep aft bathing.
although not much ppl join in the celebration but i still feel ve glad and happy.
thanks all of the above for celebrating with me.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF.!

2008-04-03T04:57:00.003+08:00

i got myself a pet.! baobao gave her to me cus she got no time to tk care of her. anw, i'm also hunting for a dog. so i kept her as my pet. baobao name her 'baby' so i continue address her. was rather shocked when i first saw her, cus she is way too big for a 3 to 4 months puppy. a milky golden cross breed. baby had been with me for 3 days and everything gets along fine. she likes to stick to me all the time. once i get out of her sight, she will ran arnd looking for me and grind me when she found me. i loved this feeling cn.!!! a sense of responsiblity to take good care of her. now already bought everything for her and it cost me a bomb man.!!! but she is just too cute for me to leave her alone . i want to give her the best home ever.

anw, happily working nowadays. dono why recently many customers appeared this 2 weeks. enjoyed the feeling being busy till the way i've to knock off and rush home to tk care and play with baby. although not much entertainment aft work but still think that my life was a fulfiled wan. cus at least i'm free frm troubles and problems now. btw, i go JE kbox on the 29th march, charlene's birthday. saw many long lost friends. was kinda happy to see them arnd that day. but left early cus i'm too tired to stay longer cus i been working full this 2 weeks.

hmmm. i have to play with my baby and pat her to sleep right now so hands off the com now.

countdown to my birthday.. 5 days

2008-03-23T22:15:00.002+08:00

not gg thailand or taiwan le. hmpf.. very disappointed. everything is not gg smoothly as planned. forget it.! sick n tired of feeling disappointed again and again. jus kinda hope that this yr birthday was not like last yr. but at least last yr, i still got him to accompany me till the next day. but this yr was different, im alone. hope it was not a letdown one.

getting quite fine with my collegues. no late , no mc, no nothing. haa. kinda miss baobao since she left tiong bahru to IMM. but really sorry cause very busy to contact her recently. she now working night time job cause in need of money. dono what shld i say to her cause i know she is simply to stubborn to listen to anything... haish:((

nowadays, my life is as stale as a stagnant water. sians!!! work, go home, work, go home and nothing else le. life is getting more and more dull... life seem to have no goal for me to achieve le.
ting was in love le. her forcus is on 'him' and 'him' and 'him'. haa. hope this time round things will work well. and me... still empty. dono why my eyes can no longer falls on anyone le. maybe too tired le ba. david call me up a few days ago, and say thing which melts my heart. tears rolled down my cheek the moment ya came crying and apologised for all the hurt ya given me and asked for a last chance. but sorry... i can only say i don wan to land myself in this kinda matters anymore le. so don get me involve.! sorry for being harsh... forgive me.! i have to protect myself from being hurt once more.

to: gal[baobao]...
although i still don really agree that ya work night time job but i know i cant stop ya. all i can say is ya've to be very careful when working. don drink too much if ya cant. cant imagine ya drunk and nobody was with ya at that moment. i jus wanna let ya know one thing... leslie did not say don wan ya to stay at TB. the real reason for transferring ya to other outlet is because he want ya to know what ya really want in your life? what is your goal afterall? and the most impt thing he want ya is to settle everything [family pro] that mess up your mind and troubled ya all along. but things like getting out of nowhere. instead ya clearing up the mess and live peacefully, ya're making you life more complicated by working. i understand that ya want extra income. but doesnt it make no different when ya go work at night den the next day cant get up for work. earn and deduct at the same time, ended up still the same... right? hope ya can give a second thoughts bout working at night. last but not least... tiong bahru still welcome ya back anytime.! misses.

stop right here. and i have to get myself prepare to go to 216 [a place full of our memories] to meet darren and baobao for a chat later at 12.

2008-03-18T13:04:00.002+08:00

very busy and lazy to update my post. so i'll just roughly summary what i wanna say... today my off day. was suppose to meet baobao and bring her dog out. but wasn't confirm at all. hmmm... baobao left tiong bahru le. she went IMM to be asst. den a new recept came to replace her. and what i can say bout the new recept is OH MY GOD.!!! she was like doing nothing at the counter. me and ting was the one doing counter de thingy lor. asst's target and service and commission i'm the one who's calculating. the tiredness was simply cant be express by words.

went to watch the spiderwick with ting. it was rather a funny show but somehow i was frightened by the sound effect when the monster came out. lol. this is only my one and only de enjoyment i had tis few days... haa. i've been worn out by all these stuffs recently. so whenever i reached home, i immediately fallen asleep right on my bed without removing make up and bathing. nobody can imagine how tired i am...

i shall stop here and went back to sleep as ytd chatted on the phone. very long since i met him and kinda surprise he called up when i told him i wasnt in a gd mood.

2008-03-09T03:44:00.002+08:00

back from movie [ RULE1] with ting and baobao. went to XIAO XUAN FENG to eat and slack our time to 10plus and headed up to aracade to have fun. me and baobao indeed enjoy our game very much. so thrilling cn.! time up and we went for our movie. me and baobao paid 9.50 for the movie ticket but we only watch the show for half price. haa. cause right from the beginning of the movie, me and baobao were using my scraf to cover our eyes and grind down the seat. the movie was quite horrible and i rated it at 8/10. aftermath, went down for a smoke and meet darren and co at indian restuarant. chat awhile and cabbed home with ting.

tmr outing at steamboat catering. looking forward to tmr.!

2008-03-06T00:44:00.002+08:00

went to raining yesterday with baobao for a drink. thinking we can enjoy throughout the night. but things sometimes really cant goes smoothly as we wanted. haish. wat i can say is everything is so damn spoiled that very night. dampened my mood.! went off with a very pissed off mood. but there is still things that make me very happy. my promise was kept.! thanks. "i appreciated very much that ya still remember my promise.!"

today went to work almost late. thanks for ya de morning call. went to haf my photo taken with baobao and etc developed. and i was so thrilled over it cus it can add templates to the photos. *shy... im so mountain turtle.! lol. thinking i can get right away but can only be collect on friday. jus so excited to look at the photos cn.! hees. went to 'xiao shun feng' to have some dian xin with baobao and sat down for a short chat den head back home cus im right now feeling damn tired. shall stop here. im going to rolled on my bed and have my sweet dream le. nights, everyone!

2008-03-03T03:17:00.008+08:00

quite a few months since i update my blog. saw my previous posts and decided to delete every single one and start a brand new post. even i didn't update my blog but i still will spare some time to see my friend's blog and update their recent lives. gladly to know that everyone of my friends are safe and sound and most of all they are living happily with their loved ones. cheers:)

well.. my life all along are going ups and downs rapidly. although im doing fine in my work, have lots of friends to hang out with on my nightlife but still feeling something missing from my life. everyone of my friends is moving on while im still pacing to and fro on the same spot, not even an inches of movement i had made so far. haish. but from the bad experiences i had in the past, i learn to be strong. maybe also because that i had already stepped into working society, the people i see, the difficulties i face and the problems i need to cope, mould my character to be more stable and stronger than before. im no longer the hazel that people used to know. my life goal now is only hope to be happy everyday. 'forgive and forget' had gradually become my life quotes in order to spend my days happily. some things i used to hold on tightly in the past, i have learn to let go bits by bits. feeling doesnt come stronger now when face to face. my eyesight no longer only set on him. so how should i feel? happy that finally i can get over? sad that i waste so much of my youth in believing 'I'll reap what i sow'? no answer to the above question. lol.

shall end all this childish talk. planning to go Taiwan on the following month but due to baobao, we change our destination to Thailand(Bangkok)! lol. the different is just too much cn!!! anyway, Taiwan will be our next year June outing destination for sure. wanna leave this bustling city to Bangkok, resort village, to relax myself from stress and problems. tomorrow will meet up baobao to go NATAS FAIR to book our air tickets. flying on the 01st April and back on land on 05th April. on the 06th April to 09th will be my chalet celebrating 20th birthday(still planning). will inform my friends once confirmed. super looking forward to Bangkok and my chalet. cant imagine how happy will i be on my day?!!

think shall end here. im going to catch a nap before going to bishan park for drinks and pool sessions with my gals. shall update my chalet details in my next post. lastly, gonna say to friends that i long didnt contact with... friends, you are not forgotten, is just that im slogging on my work. meet up soon. tk care:))